emotions

Last week, I had two intense grief waves

One morning, I woke up feeling sluggish and uninspired. After doing my morning workout and breakfast, I sat with the feeling and asked what it was about.

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It was some sadness that wanted to be felt. So I put on my grief playlist, layed on my bed and cried for around half an hour and fall asleep for like 10 minutes after that. I woke up feeling rejuvinated and energised. Then I carried on with my day.
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I had another one of these 2 days later. Again, I stopped everything I was doing and just allowed myself to feel. I took this photo on the same day to show you how quickly grief can move through you if you allow it.
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Grief is a tricky emotion. Itโ€™s very unpredictable, you never know it will hit you and leave you like the weather here in London these days ๐Ÿ˜‚ You might feel โ€œI thought Iโ€™ve dealt with thisโ€, but accepting that itโ€™s here again and feeling it fully is the way out โœจ
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Give yourself space and time to just FEEL. Put a 30 minutes timer on, leave everything and feel. 30 minutes spent feeling your emotions will save you hours of feeling either numb or very low. Thereโ€™s a reason behind you feeling low.
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It might be hell for few minutes but in the end, you will feel lighter, connected, more alive and open. In the depth of your sadness, you will find your joy ๐Ÿ’› And your body will thank you for it later.
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If youโ€™re going through challenging emotions, know that youโ€™re not alone, youโ€™re so brave to feel them ๐Ÿ™๐Ÿผ Message me if you want that grief playlist โœจ
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I love you โค๏ธ
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๐Ÿ˜ก๐Ÿ˜ญ๐Ÿ˜œ ALLOWING YOURSELF TO FEEL ๐Ÿ˜œ๐Ÿ˜ญ๐Ÿ˜ก

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No one can tell you what your truth is. Only you know. 

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It feels very empowering when you feel your emotions and able to navigate through them where you find your own answers.
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Youโ€™re meant to feel as a humanbeing. Itโ€™s the judgement that twists the actual experience. You can go through your emotions without judging it as positive or negative. Itโ€™s just is, an experience happening for you right now.
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All emotions just want to be felt. When youโ€™re going through one emotion, it often links to another one. You could start with anger, as you feel your anger, you might find sadness underneath it. When you go right to the depth of your sadness, there you will find joy.
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So how do you allow yourself to feel?
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You welcome all the feelings. Not just the happy, light ones but welcome the darker emotions knowing itโ€™s safe to feel and you wonโ€™t be shown something youโ€™re not ready to feel.
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Every emotion holds a treasure for you. I find that the gift of anger for me was to show me where my boundaries were, where I didnโ€™t speak my truth and what I truly cared about. Iโ€™m naturally a passionate person, came with lots of anger. I was very passive aggressive until I learnt how to speak my truth with love. Someone once told me, โ€œWith your fire, only burn what doesnโ€™t serve you, not yourself or other people.โ€ ๐Ÿ”ฅ
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The gift of sadness for me was to have compassion and empathy for myself and others who went to a dark place. Being able to go into my sadness with such depth, gave the same depth to my joy as well. I get to appreciate the whole spectrum and feel myself and others so much more.
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Crying can come from two places. One is victim, poor me, spiralling downwards crying that doesnโ€™t actually serve. The other one is an emotional release where youโ€™re allowing yourself to feel the full sadness and going through it for a moment or a day, however long, knowing it is passing. Youโ€™re coming from a knowing and empowered place.
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Youโ€™re allowed to feel sad and defeated. You donโ€™t have to be the strong one all the time. You can let your guards down. You can be loved in your grief, sadnes, anger, joy or peace.
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If you want to experience this in a safe and loving space, with no shame or judgement, come do breathwork with me on the 18th, next week. If youโ€™re already in touch with your emotions, come join anyway, letโ€™s go deeper. You might find parts of you that you didnโ€™t know were there ๐Ÿ”ฅ
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We still have spaces available. Link to book is below โœจ
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https://www.brownpapertickets.com/event/4196787
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I love you โค๏ธ
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๐Ÿ˜ƒ EMOTIONS: JOY ๐Ÿ˜ƒ

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Time to talk about joy!

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Joy is like feeling alive, feeling passionate and excited about what is possible in this life. This is the emotion I feel most easily. It's naturally there.
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You might feel like what's the point to all this, life is just hard, confusing, leaves you in difficult situations, overwhelmed. Then you want to just give up, shut down and hold yourself in that heavy, lonely place. Its as if you want to punish yourself and others by keeping you miserable, proving yourself that life is miserable.
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But actually you always have a choice in any moment. You can choose to feel joy same as you choose to hold yourself in that misery. It's not fake until you make it, its when you feel all emotions that most people avoid to feel, fear, anger, sadness etc and release it by fully feeling, you'll naturally feel more joy. The lower you can go, the higher you can go. Rather than running around with sacks of potatoes, you let them go, so you are lighter, more expanded and alive.
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People I see with most joy are actually the ones that are honest with themselves, who feel all the emotions. Then when they do feel joy, passion, happiness they feel much more. Whenever I cry loads, I feel a wave of joy and aliveness wash over me after.
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Whenever you feel joy, feel it fully, put your hand on your heart, close your eyes and anchor this moment in your heart, knowing that whenever you put your hand on your heart, you'll feel it again. Your body remembers even when you forget.
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If you want to laugh, allow yourself to laugh hysterically. If you're worried what other people will think, know that they're just people and after 15 mins they'll forget what you did anyway, they have their own shit going on, they're worried what other people will think as well ๐Ÿ˜‚
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So how do you connect to that joy?
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Follow these steps:
- Always acknowledge how you are feeling in this moment. Know that it doesn't define who you are.
- Imagine yourself in the future as your best self, whole, complete, exactly how you want to be and even better.
- Ask them, 'What's my next inspired action to connect to my joy?'
- It doesn't have to make sense, don't judge it, just follow that.
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Whenever you doubt something, always ask your higher or future self. It's empowering yourself to find your own answers rather than asking others.
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What brings you joy? What makes you feel fully alive? Comment below ๐Ÿ’ฅ
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Wishing you a gorgeous rest of the weekend ๐Ÿ™Œ๐Ÿผโœจ
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My heart feels so full...

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Just look at all these beautiful women shining ๐Ÿ˜ That's what I love seeing, women coming together as a tribe, being themselves, loving themselves, releasing pain and opening themselves up.. Thank you all for being there today fully ๐Ÿ™๐Ÿผ

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Each time I do a workshop, a part of me goes, 'Yeah but you could've done this differently', 'What about this?' etc. Then I remind myself, actually girl, it went amazing! Then I go celebrate myself โค๏ธ
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Thank you G-Therapies Gulie Ismail and Amanda for assisting, means so much you were there. It feels wonderful to ask for help and receive it knowing that I don't have to do everything on my own ๐Ÿ’›
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Off to chill in my bath now ๐Ÿ’๐Ÿฝ
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Loads of love to you ๐Ÿ’œ
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๐Ÿ˜” EMOTIONS: SADNESS ๐Ÿ˜”

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Sadness is not a bad emotion, not a good emotion either. It's just an emotion.

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Most people don't want to feel 'bad' emotions like sadness, anger, grief etc. It might feel scary actually. When you feel sad, it might feel like its going to be there forever and you're stuck in it now. The world feels like such a lonely place and you're the only person feeling this way..
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I've felt this many times. Especially this year as I'm allowing myself to feel more, I'm feeling everything like 10 times more. I love it. The truth is we're all human and we feel many emotions. We're not linear. We can't be happy all the time or sad all the time. When you are honest with yourself, you feel all emotions.
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You might feel angry but actually when you sit with that anger there might be sadness underneath it. When you sit with the sadness fully, cry, weep, mourn, do whatever you need to do fully feel it, underneath that you're going to find joy. When I cry loads afterwards a wave of calmness washes over me and it feels really good actually.
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It doesn't mean anything about you, you're just releasing, letting go of old emotions. When you feel your sadness, grieve fully, you give someone the permission to do the same.
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Whenever I see someone cry, I actually smile. Because they're allowing themselves to feel and reminding me how human we all are. I feel so much love and compassion for them. I let them cry without touching, saying anything, without interrupting them feeling until they're done, then offer a hug. How beautiful is that? Being human, feeling it all. Celebrate it, you're alive and feeling!
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Next time you feel sad, try these steps:
- Close your eyes and take a deep breath
- Sigh out loud
- Allow yourself to feel the sadness
- If tears come, don't hold them back, they're meant to come and go
- When tears are done imagine your future self infront of you
- Ask them, 'What's my next inspired action to follow my truth?'
- Follow that
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You can feel it all and still not let it take you go off course. You have the power and you get to choose ๐Ÿ™๐Ÿผ
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What do you do when you feel sad? Do you cry a lot? I definitely do โ˜บ๏ธ
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Love you ๐Ÿ’™
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๐Ÿ˜ก EMOTIONS: ANGER ๐Ÿ˜ก

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Anger's a tricky emotion. You might be afraid to feel and express it, because it usually is considered as a 'bad' emotion. If you're honest with yourself you'll feel all emotions. Sadness, joy, love, anger.. 

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Happiness, joy etc are fine to share why not anger and sadness? Because they're uncomfortable, seeing someone in their anger makes you question how you are with this emotion. It might make you face something you don't want to face.
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Personally growing up, I was never shown how to feel my anger, express it, move through it and let it go in a healthy way. I saw it as people screaming at each other. I thought, that's anger and it does bad things.
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But the truth is you don't have to direct your anger to someone. You can feel it, express it and let it go. If you feel like you're angry and judging someone for what they're doing, direct that energy to creating your own version of how you'd do it. Same energy but used in creating rather than destruction.
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When you repress your anger, or deny that you're angry, the other side can feel it and it comes out as passive aggressive way anyway and that just feels horrible and we all know that feeling ๐Ÿ™ˆ
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I mainly express my anger during breathwork. If its a group session, everyone lays down, they start breathing. Through oxygenating the body, buried emotions come out. There's loud music, so you scream, shout, shake your body, hit some pillows, let go of the anger so it doesn't stay in your body. I love it โค๏ธ That's why its always part of the workshops I do.
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But if you're somewhere that you can't shout or hit a pillow, try this next time you get angry:
- Close your eyes
- Allow the anger to bubble up
- Close your mouth with both hands
- Open mouth let air out into your palms like a silent scream
- Shake your body and head while you do it
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This releases the energy from your body. If you want to gain awareness of what the anger was about to ease your Ego, ask yourself:
- What am I angry about?
- What's the anger telling me to do?
- Now let that go, imagine you're empty pure light, floating above the situation, fully present and in bliss, ask 'What's the truth?'
- Act on that truth.
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This helps you to see what's underneath that anger. Maybe you're angry bypassing feeling sadness. But if you sit with that anger, you'll feel the sadness, then it'll go.
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No emotions have control over you if you feel them fully โœจ
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What's your take on expressing anger? How comfortable are you with your own anger?
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Loads of love to you โค๏ธ
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๐Ÿ˜ฑ EMOTIONS: FEAR ๐Ÿ˜ฑ

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I've been reading "Maps to Ecstasy" by Gabrielle Roth, the creator of 5rhythms. She talks about 5 emotions that move into one another as you allow yourself to feel.

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Over the next few days, I'll write about these emotions: Fear, anger, sadness, joy, compassion ๐Ÿ’›

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So fear ๐Ÿ™ˆ

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Fear can be paralysing. Your breathing becomes shallow. You stand there for ages, overthinking stuff because of fear ๐Ÿ˜ƒ

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You might feel frustrated when fear takes over you. You might feel like you don't know what to do, other people know. So you ask other people what to do. The ones that look like they never get scared ๐Ÿ˜‰

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You can loose sight in where you want to go. You might feel unsafe, alone and in danger. It can feel stressful. And it becomes a matter of surviving, you aim for the bare minimum to make sure you're safe.

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But in truth, fear can be healthy. It's useful to be scared when you're crossing the road and a car is driving towards you, you're able to protect yourself, act quick thanks to that.

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It's also a good sign. It shows that you're growing, you're evolving. Doing things you've never done before ๐Ÿ˜‰๐Ÿ’™

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You can see fear like a nosy obsessed perfectionist. It wants to assess every single situation even when you don't need them to do that. And they like to go everywhere. Makes you imagine every single thing that can go wrong even if none of them ever happened to you before.

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So how do you get out of that fearful state?

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You acknowledge what its trying to do. And you make a choice in where to direct your focus to.

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Next time you're scared of something, you feel paralysed, follow these steps:

- Close your eyes.

- Breathe into your body.

- Feel that fear. Stay with it.

- Ask, what is it telling you to do?

- Imagine you're lifting yourself out from that fear, floating above it. See a huge golden ball of light washing all over your body from your head to toes.

- Imagine the situation unfolding exactly how you want it to unfold.

- Ask, if you could describe that feeling in one word, what would that be?

- Say its freedom, love. Hold that at the forefront of your mind.

- When you're in that situation remember that, tell that to yourself.

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When you see what fear is trying to do, it doesn't have power or control over you. You get to choose. Fear can still be there. You don't have to try to eliminate fear completely until you take action. You can still feel it but act from the truth, from freedom, or whatever it is.

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You don't have to do or be anything, you can just be yourself. Other person doesn't have to like you for you to have what you want. You can just ask and have it.

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What are the ways you found that help you not buying into fear? Would love to hear โœจ

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Love you ๐Ÿ’œ

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It's hard sometimes, doing what's true..

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Yesterday night, my love left for Thailand, for 2.5 months.. I cried my eyes out, moments throughout the day, going to the airport to say bye and a bit today as well.

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We literally went from being together 7/24 for a month, to being apart for longer than two months.. Bit of an extreme contrast there ๐Ÿ˜ƒ

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It's hard sometimes, doing what's true. But I know that it will benefit me, Aaron and our relationship in the long run ๐Ÿ™Œ๐Ÿผ
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Of course I feel sad, I feel upset, but it's not lasting forever. I don't really go into victim mode anymore, because I'm aware of it. It takes away from your Ego's satisfaction ๐Ÿ˜ƒ
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Also being aware and spiritual doesn't mean you got it all together, all the time.
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You're human, I'm human and we all feel. Whatever you're going through, know that it definitely isn't going to last forever, even if it feels like it.. Only you can make it longer than it's meant to by holding onto it.
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When you open up and allow emotions to move through you without trying to make sense, everything settles down naturally.. Then sadness can turn into joy and anger into calmness..
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How are you feeling today? โœจ
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I'm happy to be back in London โค๏ธ Loads of love to you! ๐Ÿ˜˜
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