sisterhood

๐ŸŒน SISTERHOOD ๐ŸŒน

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Happy belated International Womenโ€™s Day! 

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On Friday, I was so happy to see on social media how women were not just celebrating womanhood but sisterhood as well, appreciating the beautiful women in their lives. 

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Women are powerful on their own, but even more powerful together. Men as well but Iโ€™m going to talk about women for a second here ๐Ÿ˜ƒ We got 8 months for Menโ€™s Day lol.

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(spoiler alert ๐Ÿšจ๐Ÿ‘‡๐Ÿผ - Sex Education)

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Few weeks ago, I watched Sex Education. Itโ€™s basically a series set in high school about sex and intimacy. One of the most genius ideas Iโ€™ve seen in a long time to make something taboo, mainstream. I fell in love with it. Itโ€™s so good, go watch it.

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In an episode, one of the popular girlโ€™s vaginaโ€™s photo is being passed around at school and no one knows its her. The popular girl feels very ashamed and embarrased about how her vagina looks like. 

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Turns out it was her best friend who did it to make her understand how horrible she is to people. 

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Later on, on stage, the headteacher tells all the students sitting in their seats gives a warning about pornographic images being distributed. As he says that this best friend who betrayed the popular girl stands up and says, โ€œItโ€™s my vagina.โ€ The headteacher is a bit shocked, tells her to sit down. 

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Another woman stands up and says, โ€œNo, itโ€™s my vagina.โ€ Then another one and another one. One by one, nearly all women stood up to say its their vagina. At some point, even a guy stands up and says itโ€™s his vagina ๐Ÿ˜‚

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After so many people standing up, the popular girl who was ashamed of her vagina in the first place stands up, holds her best friendโ€™s hand and says, โ€œItโ€™s my vagina.โ€

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This is my favourite scene in the whole season. She owns her body and herself. It shows the power of solidarity, how it can heal shame and betrayal between women.

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Other women are not your enemy. You might have felt, women betrayed you, they broke your trust. So did mine. My best friend at high school went out with a guy I really loved right after we broke up. It broke my heart and I couldnโ€™t believe it. I fell out with my friend group as well for a good while as I didnโ€™t want to be around her. It left me with a decision I made not to trust women believing they will betray me. 

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I forgave her and only 2-3 years ago, I geniunely started trusting women and trusting the feminine again. And now Iโ€™m so grateful for being surrounded by many beautiful women. All loving, all so generous, inspiring and unique in their own way.

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When a woman betrays you, it doesnโ€™t mean anything about you. When you decide, โ€œwomen canโ€™t be trustedโ€, you close your heart and might become calculated with your words and actions, very controlled and rigid. While protecting your heart, youโ€™re also shutting it down to love, connection and support.

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Friday evening, I went to Gaia Roseโ€™s womenโ€™s gathering. What a wonderful event it was. 6 speakers shared their story in such an open, vulnerable and raw way. Iโ€™m so proud of my friend Lauren for sharing her story too. 

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I was in tears seeing that weโ€™re not meant to be like each other. Weโ€™re meant to shine in our own unique way. Weโ€™re meant to express our truth. Weโ€™re meant to lift each other with love and encouragement. In doing that, we allow more women to step into their power and live their truth ๐Ÿ”ฅ

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There is no comparison. There is no competition. It starts with an open heart, forgiveness and vulnerability ๐Ÿ˜

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To all women, I love you ๐ŸŒนโค๏ธ

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Photo by @harleyweir

We did a workshop! Your Empowered Cycle ๐Ÿ˜๐Ÿ”ฅ

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Amanda and I did a half day workshop today for the first time, journeying into four seasons we go through in our menstruation cycle.

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I presented the spring (maiden) - summer (mother) phase as Amanda did autumn (wild woman) and winter (crone) which works so well with our natural energy ๐Ÿ˜ Then we led a dance together through the seasons.
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You never know how the dances are going to turn out. Complete unknown. Somehow they always do their magic and I feel so alive doing them. I feel tingles, complete presence, joy, bliss, gratitude, everything. I feel everyone in the room and I feel grateful to be able to feel.
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Thatโ€™s what we were saying, when you feel something fully, it leaves naturally. It finished itโ€™s course and now itโ€™s a new phase. Nothing stays the same no matter how hard you hold onto it, it transforms and flows when you allow and surrender.
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When you embrace all parts of you, sit with all parts of you, nothing can hold you back really. You claim your space in the world by being yourself ๐Ÿ”ฅ
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I always get nervous when itโ€™s a new workshop format and always, I mean always, it turns out great. And I still get nervous ๐Ÿ˜‚ Then I remember when women come together things naturally flow and connect anyway ๐ŸŒท
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I feel grateful to have women showing up, ready to go in to shift things. And I feel so grateful to do this with Amanda. We work so well together โค๏ธ
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My intention was to make this post a short one which no longer is but will end this one with those beautiful words from the feedback today:
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โ€œPowerful circle for women to feel open, acknowledged, empowered. It allows you to connect deeply to yourself, to find yourself and reconnect with the rhythms of being a woman.โ€
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And looking at the feedback forms, I am calm, grounding, focused, loving and gentle. Amanda is wild, funny, passionate, present and a free spirit ๐Ÿ˜ƒ
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Thank you everyone who joined us today โค๏ธ Weโ€™ll do another one after summer โ˜€๏ธ
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Coming up next is The Integrated Feminine retreat next weekend with Clara, bringing aspects of femininity together through different embodiment practices. 4 spaces are left lovelies if youโ€™re interested, hereโ€™s the link for more info โœจ
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https://www.brownpapertickets.com/event/3434972
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Loads of love to you ๐Ÿ’›
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๐ŸŒบ CONNECT TO YOUR FEMININE POWER ๐ŸŒบ

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I held a Goddess Circle last night ๐Ÿ˜ 

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Had the honour to take women deep into themselves to release emotions they no longer hold onto and suffer..
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I see women sitting together in a circle curious about what the evening is about. They turned up because they like my energy. (This is what I usually hear lol)
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After few hours, they're changed, released tons of bagage, saw their truth, feeling more alive.. Realising they can be open, vulnerable and they can receive love..
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I usually get hang up how I'm doing these workshops, what are the processes, what I need to do etc. From the outside it looks totally in flow but internally I'm having all these thoughts going on ๐Ÿ˜ƒ Having done it for 6 months now, for the first time I let go of the how for real, and just had fun, letting it become what it is.
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It's funny how these evenings started of me leading a dance and a meditation. I just wanted to connect women to their bodies. Now its so much more than that.. It became a sisterhood that's growing where women come together and feel deeply connected to one another after 3 hours..
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I learn and grow a lot in each one, so I started doing feedback forms in the end of the event. Would like to share one feedback:
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๐ŸŒบ "A beautiful and heart opening experience shared with a group of amazing women. A place where you can feel safe to share and express yourself." ๐ŸŒบ
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On the way back home I said to myself, connecting women to their feminine power, what a joy and pleasure to do this ๐Ÿ’–
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In 2018, I'll continue doing Goddess Circles once a month. In Feb, there will be a one day workshop for women, then eventually a women's retreat in spring โ˜บ๏ธ๐ŸŒธ
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Comment below saying 'FEMININE POWER' if you'd like to stay updated for the next ones lovelies ๐Ÿ’ž
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You're the most important person in your life. What do you want to do? Go and do that. Treat yourself like you're your own lover ๐Ÿ˜‰๐Ÿ’›
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Loads of love to you ๐Ÿ’–โœจ
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Love love love this woman!! ๐Ÿ’–

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Thank you for a beautiful afternoon full of open hearted conversation (as always), dancing, shaking our bodies, making sounds, playing like kids and deep connection ๐Ÿ™Œ๐Ÿผ๐Ÿ’›

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I feel so grateful to have you Daisie in my life as a friend and a sister.. You're a gift to the world and an inspiration to me. I'm soo looking forward for our journey together ๐ŸŒบ
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Now on my way to the airport to see my love, so excited! ๐Ÿ˜
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Have a gorgeous evening lovelies ๐Ÿ™๐Ÿผ๐Ÿ’™
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๐ŸŒ€ ALLOWING YOURSELF TO FEEL ๐ŸŒ€

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I'm seeing more and more how important it is to feel the emotions. Any emotion, not just the happy and more uplifting ones..

At first it might feel like dying, super scary and dangerous. But that's just a protective layer of illusion to keep you away from them.

For a long time I decided to live in my head and always plan stuff until a year ago really. The life coach I had back then always used to ask me 'How do you feel?' I'd even start that sentence with 'I think I feel..' ๐Ÿ˜ƒ

I do breathwork once in a while. How it works is you breathe in from the mouth out from the mouth and everything you've been suppressing in your body starts coming up. Usually my hands and mouth go a bit weird:) Then you shout, kick your legs and arms to release. It's really painful, like physically painful for me in the chest and in my hands. Each time I do it, I see how much pain I cause myself by not expressing how I feel in the moment. There's another one im going to on Monday, let's see how that one goes๐Ÿ˜‰

In the Goddess Circles I give, there's a part where we drop into our bodies, allowing any feelings to come up. It's so beautiful to watch this. It's like watching bravery and freedom. Honestly, I learn a lot from those brave warriors.

I sometimes get days where I'm like 'I'm constantly working on myself and even the same topics keep coming up. This is never ending.' It is never ending;) But each time you go in, feel and release you become freer, lighter and move forward easier.. You feel more fulfilled and comfortable in who you are โœจ

It's not a weakness to cry or look like you haven't got it all together. The opposite, its raw and beautiful. It shows that you're a human. That you're actually trying, feeling, opening up your heart, falling, getting up and trying again. So worth the risk ๐Ÿ˜‰

#magic #transformation #bliss #emotion #warrior #consciousness #wisdom #writing #goddess #sisterhood #success #purpose #dreams #awakening #focused #holistic

๐Ÿ’ž FEMININE POWER ๐Ÿ’ž

I had an intense few days. Here's an update โ˜บ๏ธ

I held a goddess circle for the first time!

After a lot of 'what the hell am I doing', 'I'm actually choosing to walk into the unknown, this is insane', scared of not being taken seriously, I decided to do it anyway.

I had a vague idea of what I wanted to do in 3 hours but I just knew it was going to be about honouring the divine feminine in each other.

It started and I can't really explain in words. It was me talking, but not really me. Something in me was going 'say this now' and I'd say it each time. Total unknown.. Ego was still there, very quietly though. 2-3 times it went 'ok, now what?' And I just tuned in asked what I should do and knew the answer. I didn't know what to do next until the moment arrived.

It wasn't about me really, I understood what it meant to 'hold space' to create space for someone so the transformation happens. I didn't have to know what that looked like. It was such an honour and privilege to do that.

In the end, a woman expressed how she felt that her feminine essence was honoured.. Which was my intention for doing those circles in the first place with exact words! I was amazed at how when you hold an intention in your consciousness no matter what, that realises itself.

Then after not having much rest (resting is a big thing for me, learning to do that lol), I went to Mind Body Fest to Sophie Bashford's talk few days after. I don't usually read the descriptions or reviews of events. I read the title, look into the speaker's eyes and feel into if I should be there, this was a definite yes. So I went with Sarah and Lauren.

I thought she was going to speak for 2 hours and we were going to listen. That did not happen ๐Ÿ˜ƒ

She's basically an intuitive and a channeler, such a strong soul you can feel it. She guided us through a deep meditation as we sat in circles.

Our body restores pain and emotions. Anything unexpressed or unreleased sits somewhere in the body until we shed light onto it. 

It hit a big one for me when this fear of being seen, fear of expressing my truth came up. It was as strong as fear of death. 'If I share my wisdom, I'll be laughed at, I'll die'. There's something magical about when the pain is witnessed, it looses its power. Going through the pain, it went away..

Somebody called me Goddess for the first time months ago and now I really understand what she meant. She was addressing to the side of me that just knows, the soft divine side of me, we, women all have. We just forget that we can have that, be that, express that and live by that. It's safe to express that voice Goddess. You can be that voice Goddess at any given moment you wish.

I saw it once more, loud and clear, I will be empowering women to be in their divine feminine, all my life. My pleasure to do so โ˜บ๏ธ๐Ÿ’œ

Thank you Lauren and Sarah for being there for me ๐Ÿ’™

The next Goddess Circle is on 15 May if you'd like to join --> https://www.eventbrite.co.uk/e/goddess-circle-honour-your-fโ€ฆ