I had an intense few days. Here's an update ☺️
I held a goddess circle for the first time!
After a lot of 'what the hell am I doing', 'I'm actually choosing to walk into the unknown, this is insane', scared of not being taken seriously, I decided to do it anyway.
I had a vague idea of what I wanted to do in 3 hours but I just knew it was going to be about honouring the divine feminine in each other.
It started and I can't really explain in words. It was me talking, but not really me. Something in me was going 'say this now' and I'd say it each time. Total unknown.. Ego was still there, very quietly though. 2-3 times it went 'ok, now what?' And I just tuned in asked what I should do and knew the answer. I didn't know what to do next until the moment arrived.
It wasn't about me really, I understood what it meant to 'hold space' to create space for someone so the transformation happens. I didn't have to know what that looked like. It was such an honour and privilege to do that.
In the end, a woman expressed how she felt that her feminine essence was honoured.. Which was my intention for doing those circles in the first place with exact words! I was amazed at how when you hold an intention in your consciousness no matter what, that realises itself.
Then after not having much rest (resting is a big thing for me, learning to do that lol), I went to Mind Body Fest to Sophie Bashford's talk few days after. I don't usually read the descriptions or reviews of events. I read the title, look into the speaker's eyes and feel into if I should be there, this was a definite yes. So I went with Sarah and Lauren.
I thought she was going to speak for 2 hours and we were going to listen. That did not happen 😃
She's basically an intuitive and a channeler, such a strong soul you can feel it. She guided us through a deep meditation as we sat in circles.
Our body restores pain and emotions. Anything unexpressed or unreleased sits somewhere in the body until we shed light onto it.
It hit a big one for me when this fear of being seen, fear of expressing my truth came up. It was as strong as fear of death. 'If I share my wisdom, I'll be laughed at, I'll die'. There's something magical about when the pain is witnessed, it looses its power. Going through the pain, it went away..
Somebody called me Goddess for the first time months ago and now I really understand what she meant. She was addressing to the side of me that just knows, the soft divine side of me, we, women all have. We just forget that we can have that, be that, express that and live by that. It's safe to express that voice Goddess. You can be that voice Goddess at any given moment you wish.
I saw it once more, loud and clear, I will be empowering women to be in their divine feminine, all my life. My pleasure to do so ☺️💜
Thank you Lauren and Sarah for being there for me 💙
The next Goddess Circle is on 15 May if you'd like to join --> https://www.eventbrite.co.uk/e/goddess-circle-honour-your-f…