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I'm seeing more and more how important it is to feel the emotions. Any emotion, not just the happy and more uplifting ones..

At first it might feel like dying, super scary and dangerous. But that's just a protective layer of illusion to keep you away from them.

For a long time I decided to live in my head and always plan stuff until a year ago really. The life coach I had back then always used to ask me 'How do you feel?' I'd even start that sentence with 'I think I feel..' 😃

I do breathwork once in a while. How it works is you breathe in from the mouth out from the mouth and everything you've been suppressing in your body starts coming up. Usually my hands and mouth go a bit weird:) Then you shout, kick your legs and arms to release. It's really painful, like physically painful for me in the chest and in my hands. Each time I do it, I see how much pain I cause myself by not expressing how I feel in the moment. There's another one im going to on Monday, let's see how that one goes😉

In the Goddess Circles I give, there's a part where we drop into our bodies, allowing any feelings to come up. It's so beautiful to watch this. It's like watching bravery and freedom. Honestly, I learn a lot from those brave warriors.

I sometimes get days where I'm like 'I'm constantly working on myself and even the same topics keep coming up. This is never ending.' It is never ending;) But each time you go in, feel and release you become freer, lighter and move forward easier.. You feel more fulfilled and comfortable in who you are ✨

It's not a weakness to cry or look like you haven't got it all together. The opposite, its raw and beautiful. It shows that you're a human. That you're actually trying, feeling, opening up your heart, falling, getting up and trying again. So worth the risk 😉

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Today I went to a cacao ceremony Rebekah Shaman did. I got 3 main things..

Usually I rush to future and always look for my next steps. This time when I asked for my next steps, it was all about acknowledging how far I came. Really took time to see how I transformed my life completely in less than 6 months..
Literally 6 months ago, I accepted that architecture was not my thing. I love children, so I started working part-time in a primary school and as a nanny, also giving coaching sessions at the side. 5 months later, both jobs came to a completion. Now I have all the time and energy to focus on my individual coaching sessions, workshops for children and parents and women's circles that I will start soon..
I acknowledged how much I matured, owned myself and took responsibility for creating my reality especially when I sabogated myself..

My mum and dad went back to Turkey today. It was a magical week on so many levels..

They came to my workshop and even acknowledged my shamanic powers, I did healing/clearing blockages on them which they received so openly. I thought I can never be that with them. Being yourself as you are, with your parents, is freedom.. Also seeing parents as they are, not just 'parents' comes down to forgiveness and unconditional love. They do so much for us, all we can do is love them back with all our heart really..

Another thing was in the last week I was surprised to see how I was scared of money, thinking its dangerous, afraid to loose it if I have it and even assuming I'll be abandoned if I have it..

So I set the intention to clear my blockages around money. I love transforming people's lives, I do for the love of it. I basically saw that when I share my gifts, I give out so much love. And people giving me money for that is basically a form of love. I saw that money is love, its about learning to receive love.


Last thing I got was spending time in nature. Like for real.. every day. And writing every morning. I saw that I really need that silent time to integrate things, learn the lesson and move on.. I'm super quick generally in integrating but saw that doing this will take me on a whole new level.

It's the little things you do every day that makes a difference..

Oh and I'll be sharing more of what I learn, what I go through.. Openly and vulnerably 😉 💛

Thanks for reading, much love to you all 😍 ❤️ ✨

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