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My friend Nathalie is here in London!

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One of my closest friends Nathalie went to Croatia a year ago to follow her heart to create a retreat/home holding embodiment retreats. She ended up traveling to Australia, Spain, Texas, Peru and New York after Croatia 😃

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She inspires me with her courage and her determination to cope with the lack of routine 😂 I love routines and having a clean and organised home. I couldn’t do what she did for a year, would probably go crazy. She loves routines too so I admire her for what she’s done.
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She’s staying with me this week then off to Australia to move in with her boyfriend and continue with her projects ❤️
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I want to share how we met and got close as I’m super grateful to have her in my life. So we met 2-3 years ago at ecstatic dancing, started talking about tantra and I added her as ‘Nathalie Tantra’ on my phone, to this day she’s still Nathalie Tantra on my phone and in my life 🙏🏼
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We bumped into each other few times at ecstatic dancing and each time I asked her when she is starting her dance group. I was geniune, she’s really good. She got super uncomfortable each time I asked 😃 Anyway we met up for a coffee one day. I felt a strong pull to ask if she wanted to meetup with me and dance every week (we’re not close by this point) she was a bit shocked but said ‘yes’.
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We started dancing in her kitchen followed by deep conversations and eating on the floor. We laughed, cried, had so much fun, filmed ourselves. Sometimes Adam joined us 🐵 We moved with one another with blindfolds on, learnt to surrender and trust again.
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During this time we both started training as life coaches (Nov 2016) at the same time in Animas Coaching and now here we are, both graduated in a whole new chapter in our lives.
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We went to 5rhythms last night and on Sunday we’re going to picnic gathering our coaching school is organising ✨
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I am grateful to have very few but deep friendships like this one where no matter how far you go without talking for weeks, when you come back together the connection’s always there and deeper.
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Love you Nathalie so much 💛
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🌀 ALLOWING YOURSELF TO FEEL 🌀

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I'm seeing more and more how important it is to feel the emotions. Any emotion, not just the happy and more uplifting ones..

At first it might feel like dying, super scary and dangerous. But that's just a protective layer of illusion to keep you away from them.

For a long time I decided to live in my head and always plan stuff until a year ago really. The life coach I had back then always used to ask me 'How do you feel?' I'd even start that sentence with 'I think I feel..' 😃

I do breathwork once in a while. How it works is you breathe in from the mouth out from the mouth and everything you've been suppressing in your body starts coming up. Usually my hands and mouth go a bit weird:) Then you shout, kick your legs and arms to release. It's really painful, like physically painful for me in the chest and in my hands. Each time I do it, I see how much pain I cause myself by not expressing how I feel in the moment. There's another one im going to on Monday, let's see how that one goes😉

In the Goddess Circles I give, there's a part where we drop into our bodies, allowing any feelings to come up. It's so beautiful to watch this. It's like watching bravery and freedom. Honestly, I learn a lot from those brave warriors.

I sometimes get days where I'm like 'I'm constantly working on myself and even the same topics keep coming up. This is never ending.' It is never ending;) But each time you go in, feel and release you become freer, lighter and move forward easier.. You feel more fulfilled and comfortable in who you are ✨

It's not a weakness to cry or look like you haven't got it all together. The opposite, its raw and beautiful. It shows that you're a human. That you're actually trying, feeling, opening up your heart, falling, getting up and trying again. So worth the risk 😉

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