movement medicine

✨ “Stop acting so small. You are the universe in ecstatic motion.” ✨

✨ “The universe is not outside of you. Look inside yourself; everything that you want, you already are.” ✨

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✨ “Forget safety. Live where you fear to live.” ✨
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- Rumi
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I couldn’t choose 😃
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Women's Breathwork & Movement Journey is next week!
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This is a space where you step into your power, feel connected to your body and come back home to yourself through breathwork & movement amongst other women.
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12 September Thursday
Columba Space, Camden Town
6:30pm // £30
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Come join, we’ll go deep 😘
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I love you 💛
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🎵 Findings - August Wilhelmsson

💛 SEPTEMBER WORKSHOPS 💛

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September’s here!

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Here are the workshops I’m holding this month 🙌🏼
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Women’s breathwork journey is limited space, book your place soon if you’d like to join 😘 There is the monthly mixed one continuing as usual.
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I’m also covering a morning breathwork class for my friend Octavia McDonald in Lifespace Healing. Come join!
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Women's Breathwork & Movement Journey Breathwork & Movement Journey Breathwork & Movement Journey
12th Thursday // 6:30-9:30pm
Columba Space, Camden Town

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23rd Monday // 10-11am
Lifespace Healing, Notting Hill

Freedom Through Breath // A Breathwork Journey Through Breath // A Breathwork Journey
27th Friday // 6:30-9:30pm
Centre 151, Haggerston

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29th Monday // 10-11am
Lifespace Healing, Notting Hill

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All tickets are in the link in the title. For the morning breathwork class, head to Lifespace to book your place ✨
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Happy September! 🍃
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I love you 💛
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Dancing with the sunset 🌅

Two dances I went to this week have been beautiful ✨

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I learn so much through dancing, with myself and with others. Especially with others, I see where I’m aloof, where I’m needy, where I’m people pleasing, where I’m in my head, where I’m not clear with my boundaries. It reflects instantly all around me.
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I notice and bring my energy back to myself. I give myself what I want to receive from others in my sovereignty and in my power. In that place, I know I’m safe because I can hold myself. Its very loving, freeing and empowering.
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I partner up with myself, my inner masculine and feminine dance together. I feel whole and complete. I see everyone on the dancefloor as whole and complete, all unique and beautiful in their own way.
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I love you 💛
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Dancing with the ☀️ and 🌳 today

I started reading Sweat Your Prayers: Movement as Spiritual Practice by Gabrielle Roth, the creator of #5rhythms 🔥

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I’m 5 pages in and am already crying.
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✨ “I danced till I disappeared inside the dance, till there was nothing left of me but the rhythms of my breath. I entered another universe, shifted into a new dimension in which there were no boundaries; everything was energy and I was just a particle riding the universal wave.”
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✨ “I feel my soul in my body when I dance, when I make love, and most times in between. I know that to reach the light we first have to travel into the heart of darkness. After all, isn’t light created out of darkness?”
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✨ “I believe we each hold a spark of original light of creation within us. I’ve seen it light up people’s faces and bodies when they dance. In a thousand ways it has been revealed to me that God is the dance and we need only to disappear into the dance to liberate the sexual, creative and sacred aspects of the soul.”
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I go to the Sweaty Thursdays for 5rhythms, 7pm at St Peter’s Church every Thursday. You just turn up, no need to know how to dance. The dances in the church will continue until the end of October. Come join before then, let’s dance together 🙏🏼
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I was going to go to the forest to dance and film.

I saw the weather and thought, “Nah, I’ll dance in my flat instead.” 😃

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Last night, I randomly thought of the movie Les Choristes. I haven’t thought about it in years. I love this movie. It’s a story of some naughty French kids loving singing in a choir being taught by an incredible heartfelt teacher who really believes in them. 

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My dad loved the movie and I remember him listening and humming to the soundtrack. I put the soundtrack on. Last time I listened to it, I was with him. I allowed myself to miss my dad and had a good wail to it. Then few other losses came to me like a trail following one another. I followed them and cried my eyes out.
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15 minutes later, I was laughing. I love seeing over and over again how grief is so close to joy. They’re like sisters. You think they’re the opposite but they’re so similar 😊 When you go into one of them fully, you circle back to the other one.
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I’m grateful I can see how every moment is passing. I still hold on and try to keep the highs sometimes. I know it will go, its natural for it to transforms into something else so I make a video of me talking to myself reminding of this time, I journal about it and I enjoy it while its there. Then when the lows come I know that will go too, so I don’t get too caught up in it.
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I surrender to it all ✨
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I love you 💛
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🎶 El Búho - Heatwaves and Hurricanes

I had a such a beautiful, restful and soft day today in nature 🍃

It was so needed after holding 2 breathwork journeys since Friday and going to a big dance 🔥

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I feel like my Soul has grown a little bit more this week 🙏🏼

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Take time out to just BE. Whether its taking a bath, walking in nature barefoot, floating, laying in the sun. Whatever nourishes your heart. There are always things to do, but there’s always time to rest in the awe of this moment ✨
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I still get a little nervous filming myself dancing and playing around in the forest but I’m getting better at smiling at people walking by smiling back at me 🤗
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I love you 💛
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I did my first live on Instagram! 😍

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I’ve been avoiding doing this for 2 years and did every possible thing not to do it. Then just now, decided it’s time to let go of my stories and show up. Omg its such a relief 🙏🏼

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Go check it out. I’m talking about the unspoken side of success and the creative process of how I made this video and it took 2 days to upload. It’s about what I learnt in that process 🤗
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Whenever you see a post, video, workshop, a book being published, a beautiful relationship being created, an exhibition put together.. You only see the end result. Unless they share you have no idea what they’re going through 😉 I try to share as much as I can but I can’t share everything. And sometimes it’s just not serving to share. I’m just in my Ego and I will share when I get out of it when there’s gold made from that lead 🙂
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So when someone shares something, remember you’re seeing only a part of their life they’re choosing to share, not the whole picture. Everyone has something going on, everyone. If they tell you they’re good and have no problem, they’re unconscious to it. Just because you can’t see something, doesn’t mean it’s not there.
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I filmed this the other day walking around in Hampstead Heath, obviously not today in the rain 😂
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We still have FEW LAST SPACES left for the breathwork journey tonight 😍🔥 6:30pm at @centre151 in East London. No prior experience needed, just you and your heart ❤️ Come join us ✨ Link to book is below 👇🏼
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https://www.brownpapertickets.com/event/4272623
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See you tonight!
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I love you 💛
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🔮 WHAT ARE YOU CHOOSING? 🔮

I’m back from Noisily festival!

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What a journey it has been..
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I find so many of my answers on the dance floor. Dance always leads me back home to myself and I have a deeper sense of appreciation for my body for taking me there every time.
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Here’s what I saw 👇🏼
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I saw what my dancer friend of mine told me once, “You can’t kill the person you dance with.” We’re all equal on the dance floor. Your language, where you’re from, how old you are, what your job is, none of that matters. We come together and we dance at the same level, our feet on the same floor.
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I saw that after years of struggling with saying no and people pleasing, I own my space when I dance and only let people in with whom I want to dance with and share my energy. In the past it was a struggle, now it happens naturally.
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I saw that when I judge, I create seperation between myself and people. There is no better or worse. Everyone is doing their own thing in their own way. It’s not up to me to judge.
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I saw that my job is to be myself in all of me. To share myself and my truth in all openness and honesty. People who resonate with me will come and find me. I can’t be worrying what people will think as they will anyway. I might as well get on with my thing and not waste time.
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I saw that I have a strong foundation in myself now. I don’t seek validation from men anymore in the way I used to do. Instead, I want to share love and create sacred & beautiful experiences together. My Ego’s still there obviously but I catch myself. This is very freeing and never ever reached this place in my life before.
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I saw that the more I learn, the more I see I know nothing and the more I get better at letting go & surrendering.
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I saw that letting go and healing can be enjoyable. It doesn’t have to be this serious task. When you enjoy yourself and laugh, you actually let go easier.
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I saw that when I say, “YES AND ...” rather than “YES BUT ...” I open up and see more possibilities. I stop resisting and I soften. I get more creative.
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Sometimes I have shame about who I am and what I want to do with my life. It goes against what I was taught. Then I hide and let people in only to a certain distance so that they don’t find out this shame. And my Ego feels scared if I reveal all of me, my innocence will be taken away. I’ve come a long way about this after many tears, sweat, healings etc. And after all that work, I can say that it comes down to what you choose in the moment.
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What are you choosing? Are you choosing to push people away or open your heart to be seen fully? Are you choosing to judge people or to love people? Are you choosing to close your heart or reveal your innocence so all of you can be celebrated?
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Big love and thank you to Tamlyn for coming with me, Paul, Octavia and to the Vauxhall 5rhythms family Jamie, Sam, Kyle Annalisa and others. It was beautiful to see and dance with many of you 😍
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I love you 💛
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I was in my Ego quite a bit this week.

Every 3 months or so, I have a major doubt in myself, what I do in my life. My Ego flares up in many ways. I also reflect on my life every 3 months, complete on things, acknowledge what I created and create new visions for the next 3 months. So my Ego also comes up when I step up in order to keep me safe, small and where I am.

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No matter how much you live your purpose, your Ego gets in the way. No matter how amazing people’s lives may look from the outside or on social media, everyone has their Ego going on. This is why I try to be as transparent as I can when it serves to share.
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As you step up, you’re just gonna get better at knowing yourself and your Ego’s patterns. So next time, you see someone celebrating something on social media, join them. It took them one hell of an inner battle to get there 💥
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I have a lot of determination and resilience in me so I know I won’t give up. I can’t really. It’s not an option. I cannot not do what I love.
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Next time you feel you’re in Ego, follow these steps:
- Close your eyes.
- Take 3 deep breaths.
- Acknowledge your Ego when its come up as a mechanism to keep you safe, small and secure
- Ask yourself, “What am I thinking?”
- Ask, “What am I feeling?”
- Ask, “What are those thoughts and feelings telling me to do? (or not do?)”
- Imagine a golden ball of light above you that is your greatness, your higher self. Imagine you’re lifting yourself off from your thoughts and feelings and connecting with your higher self.
- Ask, “What’s the truth?” “What’s in the highest?” “What would my higher self do?”
- Follow that 🙂
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After 14 hours of sleep, dancing and crying, punching pillows, reconnecting to my higher self, I feel connected to my truth ❤️
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Here’s to knowing yourself 🔥
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I love you 💛
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Music by Thylacine - Poly

🌼 DANCING IN THE GOLDEN FLOWER 🌼

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Last weekend I went to a 2.5 day dance immersion. 

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I feel like I’m adjusting to a new level this week. I’ve had the integration flu which happens to me when I go through intense emotional releases 😃 They last 1-2 days then I feel great. They happen after full on breathwork journeys I go through but I never had it with dancing.

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I’m reading a book called Medicine Dance which I highly recommend. It is a journey of a woman healing her cancer through shamanic healing, sweat lodges, dance fasts etc. 

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It talks about how in indigenous cultures, dance is not a performance, it’s a deep meditation for the dancer. Rhythm and movement are repetitive to go into trance. The dance is not about the form or choreography. It includes everyone from all ages and there is no audience. This is what all conscious dance practices are about, 5rhythms, movement medicine, ecstatic dance, biodanza etc.

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During the weekend, I witnessed this. I witnessed the beauty of truly seeing someone deep in connection with themselves. I witnessed people finding God and in that finding themselves. I saw Gods and Goddesses in human form.

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I connected with pure unconditional love, giving for the sake of giving, loving for the sale of loving without wanting anything in return. 

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I welcomed all emotions with open arms. Especially sadness and grief. I always face outwards in those vulnerable dancing moments so no one can see my face. This time I brought all of me in facing the middle.

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I saw how burdens can be magical gifts that connects people together.

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On my way to the 6 hours dance ceremony on Sunday, I was funnily enough, reading in the book the bit about their dance ceremony which was a bit more hardcore. I smiled and saw once again, you don’t have to go anywhere to find yourself. You don’t have to travel all around the world, go into ashrams etc. You can wake up, you can find yourself right here where you are, in a coffee shop, on tube, in a park. 

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London has been the most spiritual place for me out of everywhere. I met many non-spiritual people who were more spiritual without knowing. I had many realisations on tubes and streets. I learnt the power of rituals and creating sacred spaces here.

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I danced with my dad. l truly and deeply allowed myself to miss my dad. As I surrendered fully into the grief while being witnessed in my dance, I felt freedom there. 

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I surrendered to my body and my emotions taking me to places I never knew existed. As I was witnessed, I went into a level of feeling I can’t go on my own. I changed on a deep level.

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I saw once again, the power of many hearts coming together. We’re different in our unique dances but also the same in many ways. We can’t do it all alone, we need one another. Like Ram Dass said, “We’re all walking each other home.” 🤗

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Thank you Morag Donnelly and Maria Papadimitriou for a beautiful and abundant altar ❤️

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Thank you Christian de Sousa and the team for your love, presence and the magic you held 😍

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Thank you everyone who were there, it was out of this world 🙏🏼

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I love you 💛

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