gratitude

I kept crying this morning from gratitude ...

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… receiving this feedback from one of the participants from the breathwork journey.

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I feel grateful for keep going no matter what happens in my life. Aaron and I started doing them together in July 2017 with 6 people and kept doing them ever since even though we broke up. Now we have groups of 20-25 people. Consistency really is everything. 

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I feel grateful for keep pushing through the fear of speaking infront of people, fear of fucking up, fear of being judged. From the outside, I look all good and confident but inside sometimes, it’s a whole different story.
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I feel grateful to finally have come to a place where I feel I can be myself and have fun. Then it becomes effortless. These workshops are never about me. It’s about the journey people go onto individually, that’s why they’re very empowering. You do your own healing and find your own answers.
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I feel grateful to have people who keep showing up, never done breathwork before and they grew into loving it no matter how painful it can get. And I feel grateful to be able to see how much people change even in two journeys sometimes.
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That’s me today. Happy new moon!
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Enjoy this beautiful sun today 💛
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Love you 🌹
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Yesterday I wrote 3173 words to my book 😍

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Then in the evening, I gave the best Goddess Circle I ever did 😍 I felt more me than I’ve ever been in a workshop, making silly jokes etc. Today after a coaching session, two breathwork sessions rescheduled themselves so I wrote 2024 more words.

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Between Goddess Circle, session and writing, I was crying my eyes out in deep grief, loss and sadness. And in this moment, I feel grateful ❤️

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✨ Grateful for these last two days
✨ Grateful for keep feeling through emotions even when it feels like it’ll never end
✨ Grateful for not holding onto magic moments, letting them come and go
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Sending you loads of love 🙏🏼
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💞 THE SMALL THINGS IN LIFE 💞

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I emerged from my period tent 💫

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I like having few days off from sharing on social media. I’m either busy with sessions, either on my period, going inwards to feel and process something fully or just resting for no reason. Then I always come back feeling refreshed, rested and grounded.
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Right now, I’m here in this little secret garden I found in Clerkenwell, journaling and centring myself. I feel like if I don’t journal every few days, my mind doesn’t register to what happened in those past days, I literally forget 😃 So journaling is a necessity for me to function at my best really 🗝
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I felt so blessed to have found this garden cafe here and I remembered a similar feeling I had a week ago.
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It was right after a Goddess Circle workshop I gave. The workshop went amazing despite the speakers gave up halfway through. Then I went to Pret, sat down with my avocado brie toast. As I had the first bite, I started crying. I felt like I didn’t need anything else in that moment. I felt so content, so happy. It was one of those moments where if I died, I’d be complete, I’d be completely happy with what I did here. I’m going to create more obviously but it was a rare moment where I didn’t feel I could’ve done this, done that etc. I felt proud of the life I created so far.
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Then I started listing things that I’m grateful for in my life. I don’t have a gratitude journal or anything, but when I feel a moment of bliss, happiness, joy etc, I take a moment to put my hand on my heart and to feel it fully. Then I feel into other things in my life that make me feel this way. It feels like a love bubble surrounding me and getting bigger and bigger ❤️
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I love finding happiness in the little things as well as the big things. I’m feeling like that’s reaching a new level. It’s like my capacity to feel is expanding. I have incredible, in flow, aligned as fuck days where I go, ‘finally I’m back in my flow’ followed by a super scary, messy day where I feel like I’m loosing my shit. And I’m learning to accept the non linear style of life and complexity of human emotions 😃
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I’ve been receiving a constant flow of messages full of love and support since my dad died and I’m so grateful for all of them. Thank you all! I’m taking screenshots of it all to read again if I feel lonely or seperate 😉✨
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Wishing you a gorgeous rest of the day 😘❤️
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Love you 🌻
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🙏🏼 GRATEFUL FOR LIFE 🙏🏼

I took this video last weekend when we arrived at our accommodation after a long walk into Avesbury. 

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As soon as I entered the room, I heard ‘Just trust. So much more is coming. We got you.’ ✨
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Writing words from that moment or even better recording yourself or your voice is a great way to capture and remember it. It becames an access point when you rewatch/listen/read it, you can literally go back to that moment. Whichever works for you. I used to write them down, now I find that if my voice is in it, I can feel it more. And to make sure I write them down anyway 😂
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I don’t think you can force gratitude. For me, it’s something I feel after hard times, grateful to have gone through that experience, grateful to be coming out from the other side with lessons and grateful to be going into a new chapter ❤️
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Or it doesn’t have to be huge, little things like laying on grass barefoot, feeling the sunshine on my face. Being in nature 💚 I definitely feel grateful to do that in London 😍
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Loads of love to you ✨
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