let go and surrender

✨ DEATH ✨

Death is in a way, letting go.

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Often death is overlooked as a “bad” thing. It’s something not many people are willing to talk about. It makes most people uncomfortable. It makes them face their darkness.
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Death can also be a closure, letting go, a new chapter and transformation. It can be a great teacher.
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In order to create and grow, sometimes you need to let go of an older version of you. Maybe the next part of your life requires a different version of you.
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When a part of you wants to move forward but another part of you holds on for dear life, then you feel stuck. So you stay where you are in agony. Where you go will be determined by which part you choose to give more power and energy to.
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In metamorphosis, there’s a stage where the caterpillar stops being a caterpillar, its not a butterfly yet either. Then it makes up the beautiful parts of the butterfly and becomes it. It doesn’t go, “Actually I changed my mind, can I be a caterpillar again please?” Now you’re not a butterfly, you can change your mind and go back to safety and compromise of course. But if it’s not fulfilling, why would you? 🦋
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If you’re going through that weird in between phase where you’re not where you used to be but you’re not where you want to be either, here are few reminders for you:
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✨ Trust that you have everything you need. You came up until this point, what makes you think you won’t be able to make it after this? Trust that you will be held in the unknown until you find your feet again.
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✨ Let go of control and the need to know. You only know what happened in the past, you don’t know what will happen in thr future. And you can’t control it. Surrender and trust.
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✨ Let everything go. Let go of the idea of who you used to be. Let go of the past. Let go of expectations.
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✨ Don’t compare yourself with others. You have no idea what they’re going through. Once you talk with them and if they’re honest, you’ll find out no one has their sh*t together.
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✨ Once you see the lesson, there’s no need to hold on. Give thanks and move on. Would you rather be right or free?
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If you feel like this is where you are and you’d like some support in letting go, come to the group breathwork journey this Friday 🔥
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I care about people connecting to who they truly are. Underneath all the layers, who are you? This requires letting go on some levels. Breathwork can be a very powerful and fast way to do this. That’s why I love it ❤️
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We have 10 spaces left.
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27 Sept Friday
Centre 151, Haggerston
6:30-9:30pm
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Link to book is below ✨
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https://www.brownpapertickets.com/event/4330099
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Come join! 😍❤️🔥
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I love you 💛
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💫 SURRENDER TO YOUR EMOTIONS 💫

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I’m learning the balance of allowing myself to feel sadness, grief and loss while creating and doing my work. I have no control over this at the moment. The more I surrender to my emotions, the more they transform and I’m able to create from that space. 

Life comes with it’s highs and lows. People mostly share about the highs which I find is easy to share. I don’t see many people sharing about lows openly and honestly until I meet up with them and they tell me that’s exactly how they felt 😃 Maybe it’s because of not wanting to go there again or maybe the desire to be vulnerable to a controlled extent where they still get to keep their appearances. 

The lows are where you become who you are. They’re the your stones that turn into diamonds. They’re the richness of life, raw, real and vulnerable.

The most loving and compassionate people I met are the ones who went through hell, who faced their darkness, their lows and went out from the other side, transformed. You don’t become a beautiful person by only experiencing happiness, joy, bliss etc. You can’t have depth with only experiencing these emotions. If you only allow yourself to feel those ones, you’re living your life in denial, removed from life itself. You’re not living fully.

What doesn’t kill you doesn’t always make you stronger. It can make you a closed hearted, resentful, fearful and angry person towards life as well. But when you accept what’s happening and surrender, you grow from it. The more you resist it, the more it’s going to carry on.

Especially if you menstruate and bleed regularly, before and during period is a time where all your stuff comes up. If you look closely, that period pain is telling you something. That feeling of loneliness, sadness etc is there to be felt fully. Allow it before you jump to wanting to fix it. Painkillers are not the answer.

Over the years, especially when I was small, I learnt to be joyful and interested to make friends. And I got good at it. I can make friends with anyone. I love that side of me which is being a social butterfly. It makes me feel alive and connected. 

I also have a super depressed side to me that just doesn’t want anything to do with life. It wants to hide in a room, curl up into a ball and not exist for a while. In that egoic pattern, I can’t even cry. I don’t feel, I’m completely numb and apathetic.

Now I’m learning to accept that side, talk to it, write about it, love it and transform it. Every emotion moves through you when you allow it ❤️

Acceptance is the key. If you’re not accepting as life shows you things, you can’t move forward. You’re stuck. Accept that your loved one passed away, accept that you’ve been cheated on, accept that your friend stabbed you in the back. For your own freedom, see the situation for what it is without putting a meaning to it.

I saw a beautiful friend of mine last week. After catching up, she told me I felt more loving, grounded and accepting. See in my head, everything is turning upside down and I’m loosing my shit. If you feel like that, have an honest reflection from a close friend and don’t beat yourself up. You might be doing so much better than you think you are 😉

Here’s how you can process emotions like sadness, loss, grief:

- Accept that you feel sad. Even this can be revolutionary if you usually deny your sadness. It doesn’t mean anything, it just mean that you feel sad. You’re a human with emotions.

- Close your eyes. Take 5 deep breaths into your belly while allowing the feeling to be there. 

- If you feel teary, let those tears come. If you feel rage, let the rage be there.

- Out loud, say how you feel, to the person you’re angry at, or to yourself while feeling sad. Say anything else that wants to come out.

- Hold and hug yourself.

- (If you find it challenging to get into the feeling, start writing how you feel and let the feeling talk without censoring.)

And remember, after a low, there’s always a high. Crying is not weak, it’s powerful. It’s a gift for yourself from yourself in form of a beautiful release. After big good cries I always feel lifted, calm, grounded and happy. I feel joy starting to come in again in mini waves. 

If you have a job and have things to do, allow yourself that 30 min to feel, to not do anything but to be with your pain like you would do for a friend. Whenever I go inwards, cry, write, someone books their place in my workshop or wants to have a session with me. Always. It happened today as I wrote this post.

Any unprocessed emotions will stay in your body until you feel it fully. It’s the fear of feeling we’re scared of. Once you’re in it, it’s not actually that bad. But the disconnection you have from feeling reveals itself as chronic pain, a disease, numbness. It can even effect your face. For example the left side of your face can change becoming heavier.

I went to 5rhythms movement class the other day. One of the dancers just got qualified in teaching, so the teacher invited her into the huge circle of maybe 70 people. She went in with pure joy, ecstasy, celebrating herself and her success. Then she invited everyone else to join in. Few people joined in. Everyone else was clapping in the outside circle. I watched them, I watched the people in the middle dancing, smiling and laughing. That’s when it hit me:

✨ In life, you have to participate ✨

Whatever it is, wherever you are, however you’re feeling, bring that into your life. Don’t exclude your sadness, your insecurities, include them. Show them to people, love them. 

If you want to feel your emotions fully and transform any heaviness, shame, frustration, sadness, come to breathwork next Thursday, the 15th. Bring all of you to the table. Even the parts you don’t accept or love about you as they will hunt you back until you learn to love them ❤️

Make sure to book your ticket if you want to join, we’re half full now. Here’s the link to book:

https://www.brownpapertickets.com/event/3745467

Happy new moon, a new beginning 🌕 

Sending you so much love and big hugs 💛

Yesterday I went to Floatworks for the first time ever..

You basically float in water in dark for an hour or so, its sooo relaxing.. If you do physical training its great for your muscles etc as well.

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I absolutely loved it 💙 I love baths anyway, but this is a whole new level.. You just let go, surrender and float.

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If you're usually a person who does a lot for people but not much for you, go and buy a float session for yourself as a gift ❤️

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And here's me without makeup 💁🏽

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Have a wonderful weekend! 😍

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