birthday

Yesterday was my dad’s first birthday since he passed away in September.

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Link for video: https://www.facebook.com/isik.tlabar/videos/pcb.10161407648280300/10161407647840300/?type=3&theater

I talked to him in the morning and wished him happy birthday. I lit a candle for him and blew it before I went to bed.

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I was a bit sceptical in the beginning about the whole “talk to him, he’s always with you” advice I kept getting. Yesterday showed me he really is. I could feel his energy and presence with me few times during the day.
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This video is how I remember him, doing silly faces and voices to make me laugh ❤️
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I love you dad 💚
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Last Saturday the 20th October was my birthday!

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Thank you everyone for your beautiful and loving birthday messages ❤️

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The night leading up to my birthday, I stayed over at Aaron’s. He placed 26 candles all across his room, each one to be blown after making a wish. I went around blowing the candles, making wishes. It showed me what love can look and feel like even after a breakup. 

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On my birthday, I thought I’d be sad not having my dad around for the first time. I did, I also felt grateful for everyone in my life and everything I have including the tea the nail’s place offered me after hearing me coughing ❤️
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I had a very chilled gathering with few of my friends, received plants, flowers, cards, calls, words, ferrero rochers, lots of hugs and kisses 😍
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We also raised £420 here on Facebook for PAPYRUS Prevention of Young Suicide! Thank you for contributing!
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Thank you for being in my life everyone, in real life or on here reading what I write 😍
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Wishing you a beautiful evening ✨
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