birthday

I’m turning 27!

I’d love to celebrate with you all ❤️

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Bring your friends, bring your partner, bring your kids if you want, everyone is welcome.
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I haven’t done a big party in 10 years and I’m SO excited for this one 🔥
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The more I experience grief and loss, the more I see I really don’t have all the time in this world. And I want to appreciate and celebrate everything and everyone in my life including who I am 💛
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This is me dancing in the venue.
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When I went to see it, I initially saw it to hold a potential workshop there. I fell in love with the space. As I was in the energy of the space, it didn’t feel quite like a workshop. I gave it few days to settle, then the idea came to me in the shower I think - omg I’m going to celebrate my birthday there! ❤️
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I basically want a big party where everyone is having a great time, being themselves, connecting with people they haven’t met and having fun 🎉
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We’re going to have a sacred cacao ceremony, great music by Dan Calabrese and dance with an alcohol free night 💃🏽
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All the info is on Isik’s Birthday Party // Cacao & Dance 🙌🏼
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I love you all, see you there 😍
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Yesterday was my dad’s first birthday since he passed away in September.

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Link for video: https://www.facebook.com/isik.tlabar/videos/pcb.10161407648280300/10161407647840300/?type=3&theater

I talked to him in the morning and wished him happy birthday. I lit a candle for him and blew it before I went to bed.

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I was a bit sceptical in the beginning about the whole “talk to him, he’s always with you” advice I kept getting. Yesterday showed me he really is. I could feel his energy and presence with me few times during the day.
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This video is how I remember him, doing silly faces and voices to make me laugh ❤️
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I love you dad 💚
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Last Saturday the 20th October was my birthday!

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Thank you everyone for your beautiful and loving birthday messages ❤️

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The night leading up to my birthday, I stayed over at Aaron’s. He placed 26 candles all across his room, each one to be blown after making a wish. I went around blowing the candles, making wishes. It showed me what love can look and feel like even after a breakup. 

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On my birthday, I thought I’d be sad not having my dad around for the first time. I did, I also felt grateful for everyone in my life and everything I have including the tea the nail’s place offered me after hearing me coughing ❤️
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I had a very chilled gathering with few of my friends, received plants, flowers, cards, calls, words, ferrero rochers, lots of hugs and kisses 😍
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We also raised £420 here on Facebook for PAPYRUS Prevention of Young Suicide! Thank you for contributing!
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Thank you for being in my life everyone, in real life or on here reading what I write 😍
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Wishing you a beautiful evening ✨
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