I’m SO excited to announce that...

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Jitka Janakieva and I are collaborating to hold our first workshop together! 😍

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It’s called - RELEASE & NOURISH 🔥🌺

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It’s a half day transformational retreat through breathwork, sound bath and reiki.
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This was one of the most effortless collaborative creations ever. Jitka is a really good friend of mine, love her so much. She came to few of my breathwork journeys, then I went to hers to hang out. She gave me a mini sound journey as whenever I visit her house, it turns into a mini nourishing retreat ❤️ Nourishment is really her gift.
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After the journey I told her I’d love to create something with her where we combine breathwork and sound bath. She said “I’ve been thinking the same!”. Then we came up with the name literally in few seconds. It was magic ✨
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We both heard about Lifespace Healing that opened 2 months ago, a gorgeous space in West London so the venue was obvious as well 🙏🏼
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We’d love to have you there bringing you back home to your essence while we shower you with love 🧡
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12 May Sunday
Lifespace Healing, Notting Hill
2-6 pm
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We have LIMITED spaces 🌻
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You can read more or book your place through the link below 👇🏼
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https://www.lifespacehealing.com/events
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As always, all in a safe and loving space without shame or judgement 💛 Open for men and women. Come join!
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Message me if you have any questions 🙏🏼
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I love you ❤️
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Take 5 DEEP BREATHS as you watch this smoke 💚

Whenever you feel overwhelmed this week:

❤️Close your eyes
💜Take a deep breath
💛Place your hand on your heart
💚Drop back into your body
💙Ask “What’s most important right now?”
💜Follow through on that ✨
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Things you feel that are urgent are often not urgent at all. You go faster by slowing down.
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Wishing you a gorgeous Monday 😘
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I love you ❤️
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I had the pleasure today...

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… to assist Richie - The Breath Guy at OM & AH at Ministry of Sound, an epic yoga and breathwork morning for 90 people!

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I absolutely love breathwork and it was mindblowing to see Tom Middleton ’s sound genius weaved into the whole experience as well 💎

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The energy in the room was amazing and so humbling to witness. I always remember our humanness, how we’re all connected and not that different from one another. Then I feel so much love for everyone in the room ❤️
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Thank you all for an incredible incredible event! 🙏🏼
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👉🏼 BLAMING VS OWNERSHIP 👊🏼

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What you resist in others is what you have in yourself that you haven’t accepted yet. 

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Judgement shows you where you need to grow or where you need to have more compassion for yourself more.

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Similar to judgement, blaming other people is a distraction from feeling and going through your own pain. It’s so much easier to blame someone for your pain.

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It’s so much easier to create drama rather than owning your pain. It’s so much easier to get angry at your parents rather than feeling your wound of feeling not good enough or unloved. It’s so much easier to blame your partner for making you feel sad by breaking up with you rather than feeling your own wound of abandonment.

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Whenever you get an emotional trigger towards someone, hurt, anger, frustration; it often comes down to a memory you had when you were a child. It’s usually not about that person. Nearly nothing is personal. You might feel your partner is causing you pain, they’re not. They’re triggering an unresolved pain from your past.

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So how do you create a life free of drama?

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By taking ownership of your life. You are creating everything in your life. Things don’t just happen to you randomly. Everything happening in your life shows you what is already going amazing and also what needs to change.

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Up until 2 years ago, I used to have so much drama in my life and I thought things were just happening and I felt powerless against it all. With ownership of all of my reality, constant self-reflecting and having few people around me with great awareness and intuition reflecting back to me the choices I make, I can say that, I’m grateful to live a life with honesty, openness and integrity. Of course I have setbacks but I bounce back from it in a day rather than lingering in my Ego for a week. This is my biggest achievement to date, to live my life this way 🌟

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And this shift doesn’t have to be hard. Inner work doesn’t have to be serious. Healing doesn’t have to happen in suffering. It takes a moment, a second, a choice to shift. 

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Here are some examples of turning BLAMING into OWNING:

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BLAMING 👉🏼 You’re getting angry at your partner for not making you feel loved and cared for

OWNING 👉🏼 You might feel this deep down without your partner anyway and you’re not letting them know what makes you feel loved expecting them to know magically.

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BLAMING 👉🏼 You’re getting annoyed at a woman in the bus for talking super loud on the phone

OWNING 👉🏼 You might have a family member that was super loud so you decided to keep yourself very quiet and small. 

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BLAMING 👉🏼 You feel pretty crap this morning and the weather is shit.

OWNING 👉🏼 You haven’t created space for yourself last night to unwind and relax, you went to bed straight from being your phone so you didn’t get a good night’s sleep.

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Here’s how you can shift from blaming to owning when you’re triggered:

- Close your eyes, take a deep breath.

- Ask yourself, “What am I thinking?” and “What am I feeling?”. Your thoughts and feelings are gateways to your Ego. Feel free to blame others here, go for it.

- Sit with that feeling, notice how it feels.

- Ask “What is this showing me about myself?” & “What is this teaching me?”

- Take another deep breath.

- See a golden ball of light above your head descending onto your body, touching your head. As it does, your whole body lights up and you’re free of the past and the future. You’re empty, here and now. And you let go of the need to know ✨

- Ask “What is in the highest to do?” 

- Follow through on that. 

- Give yourself a hug, because why not ❤️

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This works with any kind of relationships, intimate, family, friends, collegue etc. If you want to have a conversation about it with the person, ask if they’d be open to talk about it. Then start with, “I’m feeling... when you .....”. This way you are owning how you’re feeling rather than blaming the other person.

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When you master this shift from blaming to owning, I PROMISE YOU, all the drama in your life will start to fall away. You’ll notice the difference when your life start to become effortless, simple where you know what your truth is as you own what is yours and what isn’t ❤️

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I do 1-1 transformational coaching sessions around owning your life, making choices that are in the highest and create a drama-free life full of flow and joy. Message me if you’re interested ❤️

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Have a gorgeous Saturday! 😍

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I love you 💛

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😡😭😜 ALLOWING YOURSELF TO FEEL 😜😭😡

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No one can tell you what your truth is. Only you know. 

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It feels very empowering when you feel your emotions and able to navigate through them where you find your own answers.
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You’re meant to feel as a humanbeing. It’s the judgement that twists the actual experience. You can go through your emotions without judging it as positive or negative. It’s just is, an experience happening for you right now.
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All emotions just want to be felt. When you’re going through one emotion, it often links to another one. You could start with anger, as you feel your anger, you might find sadness underneath it. When you go right to the depth of your sadness, there you will find joy.
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So how do you allow yourself to feel?
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You welcome all the feelings. Not just the happy, light ones but welcome the darker emotions knowing it’s safe to feel and you won’t be shown something you’re not ready to feel.
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Every emotion holds a treasure for you. I find that the gift of anger for me was to show me where my boundaries were, where I didn’t speak my truth and what I truly cared about. I’m naturally a passionate person, came with lots of anger. I was very passive aggressive until I learnt how to speak my truth with love. Someone once told me, “With your fire, only burn what doesn’t serve you, not yourself or other people.” 🔥
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The gift of sadness for me was to have compassion and empathy for myself and others who went to a dark place. Being able to go into my sadness with such depth, gave the same depth to my joy as well. I get to appreciate the whole spectrum and feel myself and others so much more.
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Crying can come from two places. One is victim, poor me, spiralling downwards crying that doesn’t actually serve. The other one is an emotional release where you’re allowing yourself to feel the full sadness and going through it for a moment or a day, however long, knowing it is passing. You’re coming from a knowing and empowered place.
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You’re allowed to feel sad and defeated. You don’t have to be the strong one all the time. You can let your guards down. You can be loved in your grief, sadnes, anger, joy or peace.
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If you want to experience this in a safe and loving space, with no shame or judgement, come do breathwork with me on the 18th, next week. If you’re already in touch with your emotions, come join anyway, let’s go deeper. You might find parts of you that you didn’t know were there 🔥
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We still have spaces available. Link to book is below ✨
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https://www.brownpapertickets.com/event/4196787
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I love you ❤️
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🔻🔴 HOW I CAME TO LOVE MY MENSTRUAL CYCLE 🔴🔻

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Having your period can be a daunting or a beautiful experience. Here’s my journey from hating my period to loving and honouring it 🌺

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When I had my period for the first time, my mum took me out for dinner with my dad to celebrate. I’m grateful for that experience how it left me feeling this is something to be celebrated rather than be ashamed of. Thank you mum 😍❤️

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Later on, I found having my period daunting through my teenage years up until 2 years ago. I wasn’t aware of what was actually going on in my body not just during bleeding but other times during my cycle as well.

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I was pushing pushing pushing, busy getting stuff done. I saw having period as a roadblock. It was slowing me down and getting in the way of my productivity and focus. 

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Until I learnt, in one menstrual cycle, you actually go through all four seasons. 

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❄️ During bleeding, you’re in winter where you go inwards, slow down, release and rest. 

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🌺 After you bleed, you’re going into spring where your natural energy is coming back to you, feeling productive and on top of things. 

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☀️Then you go into summer where you’re in full bloom, at your peak, great with people, feeling loving, connected and balanced. 

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🍂 As you ovulate, you start to go into autumn where the desire to go inwards is getting stronger, noticing what needs to change in your life, your intuition showing you your truth.

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Then I understood, we women, are connected with the cycles of nature, we are nature herself. We have a whole year happening inside our bodies every month 🌎

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I stopped using tampons and started using divacup - a cup you use during bleeding to collect your blood. I was grossed out of the idea in the beginning, then I noticed I had less period cramps and I got to connect with my blood. I would put my blood on my face, give it to my plants or paint with it 🔴 

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You can read a post I wrote a year ago, connecting with my blood with my partner 👇🏼

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https://www.facebook.com/595885299/posts/10160027539565300?sfns=mo

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2 summers ago, my whole forehead flared up with spots. I went to dermatologist and gynecologist to find out what that was about. The gynecologist immediately told me to start taking the birth control pill. I’ve only taken it for 3 months in my life. I asked my body, looked at him and said, “No.” He was surprised. Two weeks later, my forehead cleared up naturally being around Mediterranean sun, sea and salt.

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I had a non hormonal coil (IUD) in my womb for 3 years as a birth control method. It is a T shaped copper object that creates an environment in your womb impossible for sperms to survive. 6 months ago, when my long term relationship ended, I got clear during a period that I needed to take the coil out as I was bleeding a lot due to inflammation from this foreign object in my womb. 

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I’m ever grateful for that piece of copper for allowing me to go to places I never knew existed, knowing I’m safe to surrender in lovemaking. I thanked it and went to get it out by a woman at the clinic who was called the “coil whisperer” 😂

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During the last 6 months, I noticed my bleeding got lighter and lighter with every cycle up until now, with no pain.

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I started using Natural Cycles which is a natural birth control method where you measure your temperature every morning and it tracks where you are in your cycle, if you’re fertile or not, whether you should use protection or not while having sex. I started to get to know my body a lot better which left me feeling even more empowered.

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I still use divacups as a way of connecting with my blood and period pants in case it leaks.

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Connecting with your menstrual cycle is one of the gateways to your full power as a woman. It’s about holding the little girl in you and showing her she can trust her body, have a deeper sense of appreciation for her body, knowing her body has an innate wisdom and functions beautifully. All she need to do is trust, allow and listen.

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Then that little girl turns into an empowered woman who knows her body, who knows her truth and is not afraid to express it. She’s embodied and empowered.

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Your body tells you every day, “You can trust me.” If you’re coming off the birth control pill, know that you can trust her. Your body’s waiting for you to come back home, to come back to your power and celebrate your body’s magic.

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As you connect with your menstrual flow:

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👉🏼 You feel a lot deeper, the whole spectrum - the lighter and the darker emotions. 

👉🏼 You become very in tune with yourself, others and the world. 

👉🏼 Your creativity flows as your blood flows. 👉🏼 As you embrace and welcome the ride, you practice surrender not just in your menstruation but in your life as well.

👉🏼 You come back home to your body feeling gratitude for what your body naturally does without you thinking about it.

👉🏼 You won’t let anyone in your womb you don’t connect with deeply as you love and honour your body. Your womb is the most sacred part of your body and no one should enter without your permission. 

👉🏼 You come back to your wholeness knowing yourself so deeply 🌸

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If you want to read more about menstrual cycle:

- Woman Code by Alisa Vitti 👉🏼 masculine approach

- Red Moon by Miranda Gray 👉🏼 feminine approach

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Learn everything from specialists, experts and then question them all. Ask your body. See if it feels true for your body, you know the final answer ❤️

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REMINDER: This can be a taboo subject to talk about. I’m sharing this because most woman, at some point in their lives get frustrated about their menstrual cycle, hormones or period not knowing what to do. There is a way out into a beautiful journey.

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Feel free to share if you feel this might empower someone you know 🔴

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I love hearing about women’s journeys with their period, blood, birth control methods etc. Would love to hear in the comments below or you can message me 😘

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Love you ❤️

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Love is the most powerful force on the planet ❤️

It can heal everything, even the deepest and the darkest wound.

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When you go into the depth of your darkness and accept it, welcome it and love it, you’re free of it. It doesn’t have power over you anymore. Then you appreciate the lightness and have a deeper sense of gratitude for life, feeling whole and integrated.

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This is why I love holding breathwork journeys.
It’s a space where you can bring all of you and all of you is loved, light and the dark 🐺

Darrius first came to breathwork back in February not knowing what to expect. He got through a lot of unresolved emotions and traumas in short amount of time leaving him feeling lighter and grateful for breathing and living 🙏🏼

He lost weight both times he attended. Sometimes weight can be a protective way of holding onto the past and unprocessed emotions. Here’s a video of him below describing his experience 👇🏼

https://www.isiktlabar.com/-breathwork

It’s a safe and loving space where you can shout, cry, laugh, move or whatever, all is welcome. Everything is accepted and you can be yourself.

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The last time was the first time we had more MEN than women. I’m so grateful for this because I know how men sometimes feel they’re not allowed to cry. This is a place you can do that with full permission, you won’t be judged or shamed for it, only loved.

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The next journey is on the 18th April, Thursday at 6:30pm at Centre 151, Haggerston. 

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You can book your place through the link below 👇🏼

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https://www.brownpapertickets.com/event/4196787

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Love you 💛

Happy Sunday! 🌈

Watch the video here

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I was worried of filming this in public about who might see and “judge” me. Then I remembered when you’re worried about how other people see you, they’re just busy worrying about how you see them 😂

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Thoughts are always going to be there. It’s about whether you give your power away to them or choose following through on what you’d love to do ❤️
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Put a song on and move your body today in any way it wants to move for 5 minutes. It doesn’t have to look good and there’s no right or wrong way 😉
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The most valuable physical thing we have is our bodies. Your body will appreciate every single minute you spend moving it. When you treat it well, it will give you 10 fold more 😉
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Have a gorgeous day! ✨
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Love you ❤️
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❤️ HOW TO FALL IN LOVE WITH YOURSELF AFTER A HEARTBREAK ❤️

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Breakups are painful. 

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As much as they hurt, they can also be the beginning of a new chapter.

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Falling in love is one of the most beautiful feelings on the planet. You find each other and love every single thing about each other. You become a team together, you fall into this love bubble you create together.

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You become each other’s whole world, everything and everyone to one another. You forget how you even lived before meeting this person. You love so deeply that you’d do anything for each other. 

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Then for whatever reason, that love bubble pops, you come back to reality. You see parts in this person you don’t like. You either blame the person for not being who you want them to be OR you own the fact that it’s something actually you need to be working on so you hold each other and work through it together. 

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It’s never one thing. It’s the accumulation of little things that leads to breakups. And it hurts. It can feel like this beautiful love you shared is gone overnight and you left with nothing. You might go into the story of the love you shared wasn’t real, you were betrayed, you will never be loved again, men can’t be trusted, they abandon you etc.

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The truth is, when you’re falling in love, you’re falling in love with aspects of yourself. You love yourself through loving the other person. The other person is just you, an aspect of you. When you love those qualities in them, you love the same in yourself ❤️

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The love you shared is always there, it’s never lost. The problem is, you make it about the person. When they are out of the equation, it feels as if the love is gone. It’s not. It shows you what love can feel like so you can feel it with yourself and others.

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After a breakup, you have two choices:

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✨Are you going to close your heart and give up on love? 

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✨Or are you going to keep your heart open and love again and again?

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Mark Nepo says in the documentary, Power of the Heart, heart grows through breaking, like muscles. It’s agony in the moment, it hurts. But the heart says, “Give me more.” It’s about coming back to love, finding acceptance and forgiveness.

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When you close your heart, it can feel like protecting yourself from being hurt but you’re also closing yourself to the love, magic, happiness and all there is in life. There is a risk of your heart being broken again, but the cost you pay when you keep your heart closed is much bigger.

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Nearly throughout last year, I went through a painful breakup. We chose to seperate in a way we hold each other in our sadness and grief as we wanted to be in each other’s life forever as close friends. It was hard because we literally exposed ourselves to feel rather than numbing. It brought up loads of other stuff I avoided looking at before. It wasn’t a straight line where I felt it for three days and that was it. It was more like a cycle where some days I felt free and empowered, some days, I felt sad and heartbroken until one day, I wasn’t sad anymore.

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I had my doubts creeping in, “How can you let this go? Will you find this love again?” When you let go of something not knowing what will come, that in between space can feel scary. Wherever there is space, universe will bring in something. You just don’t know it yet.

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Filling that space doesn’t have to be being with someone else. Be with yourself first, take care of yourself first rather than expecting someone to do that. You can go straight back into another relationship that makes you feel better. This could be a distraction from feeling. When that new connection ends, there you will find your pain, waiting to be felt. That’s all it wants, to be felt.

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Here are some steps to bring you back to your own love when you feel heartbroken:

- Close your eyes.

- Take 4 deep breaths.

- Notice what emotion is present in you? Allow yourself to feel it knowing it’s safe to feel it.

- Which memory is it bringing up in you? When was the first time you felt this?

- Now see the 4 year old you. How does she feel? What does she need to hear from you? Tell her she’s loved, whole and beautiful as she is. No one’s behaviour can change that.

- Place your hand on your heart.

- Imagine bringing down your awareness into your heart space. Take a deep breath into your heart. What is your heart telling you?

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No one’s behaviour or words can change who you are. The way they treat you says more about who they are. It doesn’t mean anything about you but it shows you what you believe about yourself. It shows you about your wounded self and Ego. It’s not who you truly are. The reason it’s happening is to show you a lesson that needs to be learnt, a boundary needs to be put or a change that needs to be made.

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If you’re resistant to self-love, start with self-respect and self-honour. Treat yourself with respect and honouring of your needs. When you do, all the people who don’t treat you well will start vanishing from your reality and you won’t compromise for any less than you deserve.

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"Talk to yourself like you would to someone you love." - Brene Brown

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Forget about everyone else. Only you matter. Everyone else is a gateway to you, to learn more about yourself and love yourself even more. 

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Explore what you love. What brings you joy? What comes naturally to you? What excites you the most? What would you do for the rest of your life if you weren’t paid to do it? What do people say you’re good at?

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Know that you’re healing, growing, learning and expanding your capacity to receive and give love ☺️

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Love you ❤️

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